Thursday, January 6, 2011

I am all my glory and splendor!!!

I'm so excited to say that I've been casted in the role of "Saraghina" in the musical Nine. Yes, I am honored to be the prostitute who shows Guido the meaning of love...or, in other words, what it means to BE ITALIAN!!!

I must add that I'm also playing the role of the Nun and a Folies Bergère Showgirl. It's going to be so much fun because I get to embrace my type ;))

Embracing My Type
I've been told that I am both the Madonna and the Whore rolled into one. I used to take offense to that in my younger years because that wasn't how I wanted to be perceived by others. I wasn't comfortable with being looked at as a whore, prostitute, call girl, town bang or stripper. Yet, these have been most of the roles I've played and, I must admit, the ones I've greatly secrecy. 

I just can't believe how much of a prude I was and a hypocrite. I thought that being seen as a piece of meat would inhibit my acting skills and limit me as an actress, but I had it all wrong. The problem was that I was judging my characters for who they were and not allowing myself to embrace them fully because embracing them fully would require me revealing my inner sensuality - something I wanted to do, but didn't dare to because, underneath it all, I was actually judging myself. Deep down I wanted more than anything to own my sensuality, to unleash it and revel in it, but I was afraid of being judged by others. I've even purposely screwed up auditions where the casting director calls me in to read for the "nice girl" role and when I show up he/she wants me to read for the stripper or street walker instead. I look back and realize how foolish that was of me. There is great strength and vulnerability in owning your sensuality - that is what makes a character complex, powerful and poignant - just overall interesting to be and watch. That's what I strive for as an actress.

Owning My Sensuality
Every great actor exudes sensuality. And it has nothing to do with physical beauty or looks - just look at Marlon Brando in his Godfather days - he wreaked of sensuality. Sensuality comes from within, not from our judgments of ourselves, but from our acceptance of who we are so embrace it. BE ITALIAN!!!

"I am acquainted with no immaterial sensuality as delightful as good acting." -Lord Byron
I am acquainted with no immaterial sensuality so delightful as good acting
I am acquainted with no immaterial sensuality so delightful as good acting.
I am acquainted with no immaterial sensuality so delightful as good acting.